by Chrissy Birdsall
I started about 22.
I asked anyone who would listen, even if it was not a burning interest to them.
I read philosophy; studied spiritual masters; the more ascended the better.
I followed Gurus, wise men and wise women.
I even read Ouspensky and Gurdjieff: People told me I should not attempt to read these until I was 50.
I did past life regressions; in case I knew the truth in the past life and had forgotten it in this life.
I did yoga; maybe it was a body, mind, spirit thing, and meditated.
I was hoping THE TRUTH would seep in.
I became a vegetarian; maybe if I was pure inside, I would find it easier, if I didn’t eat red meat; I forgot to tell you I still ate chicken and fish; maybe I should have been vegan?
I ate carrots, had a carrot juice every day until I turned orange; friends started to comment; so being orange didn’t do it.
On the different courses, I cried, released old hurts, and forgave everyone.
Declared to think more positively, maybe the THE TRUTH likes positive thinking.
I only mixed with like minded people; any one who was not so positive got the push.
I had my house Feng Shui’d; in case THE TRUTH would not come if my corners where not right.
I even ate disgusting mushrooms just in case they may have the answers.
I formed a group, to chat about how everyone was doing with finding THEIR TRUTH.
I looked and looked outside of myself for insights.
Now 60, I realised, could the truth have been inside me
I never really trusted that inner voice; my wisdom that was wanting, so much, to be heard all the time.
I was busy looking outside of myself; thought someone, or something would know better than me.
I am now amazed at how small and quiet my inner voice is yet could this be my truth. It has always been there.
I do recognise it. This voice is so subtle, yet so familiar, like a gentle wave of love.
I am beginning to get it, could this be my truth.?
Is this Soft awareness really what I have been searching for.
No big kundalini rush for me, just quiet knowing, no bells and whistles
Just trusting all is well, and really listening to my inner nudges
Can this be it?
Chrissy Birdsall is a renowned beauty and skincare authority, with over 40 year’s industry experience. Her boutique skincare business, Purestuf Natural Skincare, uses the finest natural and organic ingredients. The products are available for purchase online at www.purestuf.com.au or by contacting Bowral NSW 02 4862 3332 or [email protected].